I felt weird on Monday. I couldn't think, was puking, felt weak, and was a bit dizzy. I had kept hitting snooze, so I had to get ready for class in ten minutes. I took my first final, which went well I think, but it took me a while because I had trouble concentrating. After that I had to wait around for my exit conference for my teaching field. I felt completely drained, but I went home and tried to study for my other finals. That didn't work, so I started watching some tv in bed. I didn't realize what was wrong until I saw blood on my bed spread coming from my upper thigh. I had bled through a pair of sweatpants.
I had my aunt take me to the ER. I Googled some stuff and thought it was a spider bite While she was getting ready to take me. I thought they would give me a shot and tell me to take it easy for a week. It took a few hours in waiting rooms, but I finally saw a doctor, who stared at my leg with his mouth hanging open for a few seconds before saying he was admitting me. He went to get another doctor, who took a blood culture. Then all these people started poking their heads into my curtained off area like nurses and interns. I knew it was bad when people that worked at the hospital came to gawk. A nurse gave me a gown to put on and told my aunt to help me get undressed and into it. She wouldn't help me at all because she didn't want to touch me, thinking she would get sick. I was weak and my leg was still bleeding, so I bleed all over the gown I put on, which made it pointless. I was a crying mess when the nurse came to get some blood. I have bad veins, so it took a few tries to get one that worked. My aunt wouldn't hold my hand or anything, which was the worst part. The nurse said he was sorry my aunt wouldn't help and got me a new gown. The hospital was busy and it took another few hours to get me a room. In that time they gave a strong pain killer through my IV, which made it easier for me to ignore the people that kept looking at me like an animal in the zoo. My aunt left at some point to sit in the waiting room because she was worried she'd get sick. I guess that now I understand that she didn't want to get sick, but at the time it just hurt.
I was sent to the CDU early Tuesday morning. I had no idea what the letters stood for as I was being rolled through the hospital. There were no signs with the full name, so I thought it was the Contagious Diseases Unit, which freaked me out. As I was brought through the CDU, I passed by all the curtained beds to be taken to the only room with a door. They put me in a room all by myself with a door instead of a regular bed with a curtain, which freaked me out even more. I had no humility or shame left, so I started crying like a baby. The nurse calmed me down and starting asking me questions for the forms. After answering all the questions she asked if I had any for her. I asked what CDU stood for and she said it was the Critical Decisions Unit, which is a fancy term for them not knowing what's wrong. They started me an IV of more fluids, an antibiotic, and another pain killer.
I settled in and tried to sleep, but I was so upset and scared that they had to give me something to sleep. A bunch of people came in to draw more blood, poke at me, stare at my leg. The Infectious Diseases doctor came in and told me she thought I had a staph infection. They started up a stronger antibiotic. I watched the Travel Channel and Rachel Ray all day. It was impossible to sleep at night because there were a dozen people in and out of my room. I tried to read a magazine, but I didn't have the concentration level required for a Vogue article.
The surgeon came in, pushed and poked me, and said I needed to have surgery to take it all out. The labs came back and I have Methicillin-resistant Staphylococcus aureus (MRSA). I was the last surgery of the day, so the wait left me stressed and anxious. I was supposed to have a liquid breakfast, but no one brought me anything and I didn't realize what time it was until it was passed 8. Dinner was at 4:30 the previous day, so I hadn't eaten in about 25 hours and I hadn't drank anything for almost 12 hours. My aunt came in drinking a bottle of water. That bottle of water looked so freaking good.
It was so cold in the holding area before I went in. They kept piling heated blankets on me while I waited. I was rolled into the freezing cold operating room and wiggled over to the operating table. The anastegologist had a series of needles he was going to add to me IV that would eventually put me to sleep. He put in the first one and said he was going to go slowly as they started getting ready. They brought up the extensions on the side for my arms. The nurse was explaining why they were strapping my arms down and I fell asleep before she finished her sentence. I had a weird dream-like moment of a lizard in a red dress trying to make me eat a pear in the recovery room.
They assigned me an aftercare specialist nurse for a few hours after the surgery to keep me in water and walk me to the bathroom. They took out about a few centimeters of my thigh. I thought I was going home after the surgery, but they took out more than they had thought would, so I needed to stay overnight to be sure I was ok.
The next day I tried to sleep as long as I could so the day wouldn't seem as long. They had trouble getting a hold of the surgeon to get his approval that I could be discharged. It was 3pm when they got a hold of the doctor. He had went home and slept through all the calls. Just as I was leaving, I got lightheaded and passed out. They put me back in bed, started another IV, drew some blood for testing, and took my blood pressure, which was extremely low. A few hours later the tests came ok and they had to get my release authorized again. It was amazing to see the sky and breathe air that wasn't stale. The drive home left my leg aching and it didn't get much better when I got home. There was a huge argument in which my aunt told me grandmother to stop yelling at me because I'd been in the hospital for days and my leg was hurting. My grandmother actually said "her leg hurts? Well mine do too," like she'd had a piece of her leg cut out. I don't understand my grandmother at all. It's like she doesn't care what happened to me or that I could have died. She was mad at me because I had a half of a basket of laundry on Monday when I'd went to the ER. That's what she was yelling at me for: a half a basket of laundry.
I go to the Wound Center in the morning to have the bandages changed. They'll tell me more than after they've assessed it. I might need another surgery or another course of treatment. Best case is that it's healing properly and I'll be healed in 3 months.